earth day...sigh..
k so i never write on this journal thing.
i've been thinking alot about a lot of things lately. thats what bored people do when they have nothing to do. i draw or think. and i;ve been thinking about how most of everyone's lives is centered on pleasing someone. everyday, everyone tries hard to not dissapoint.
dissapointment...
we're surrounded by it every day. whether we dissapoint ourselves or we dissapoint someone else. we're always on the edge, always making sure we're doing the right thing. whether it's at work or at home, or in church, school, driving, speaking, dressing - basically in everything we do.it even goes for the people who say they dont give a crap.
it's amazing how we base our decisions off of what other people think. its amazing how it's been like this for centuries and how we've managed not to die of ulcers or mass suicides. maybe,..
maybe we're used to being dissapointed. we're used to dissapoint. we're used to not live up to some expectations and to manage to actually reach others.
i guess we just wish disspointment didnt hurt so much.
that brings us to pain. pain and insecurity. the constant caution we feel brings us to lying for something we wish to not dissapoint someone with. and that in turn brings more pain (unintentional, yet still painful, pain). pain brings anger and anger can cause death.
i guess the beginning of our life here on Earth was caused by the disspointment we caused God to feel when Eve disobeyed, ate the damn fruit, and sinned. so therefore i think we'll keep on feeling this pain. and we'll keep dying because no one can live with being a dissapointment or dissapointing someone else. yet an entire human race can sirvive by "trying" do do their best to please someone greater. it makes life more bearable...it gives us hope.
hope...we need hope..
we need hope. everyone needs something to live for. hope brings the average day laborer to work harder to get ahead in life. it brings the single mother of 4 to keep working and keep taking the challenges day by day to provide for her kids so they can make a better life for themselves. we all need hope, a reason to live.